I know nobody reads this, but if you do happen to see this post please pray for me as I just found out I am pregnant again. Of course I find out on Sat morning and can't call the Dr. until Monday. I'm a little nervous about it because it did happen the first time we tried again. I am not supposed to even be able to get pregnant, let alone on the first month of trying. I think being in Jamaica helped. I also think I have been listening to when God thinks the right time is and going with that rather than just deciding for myself. Hopefully this time will be easier!  Also please pray for my next door neighbor and good friend. They are having a really tough time and might have to move because her husband has been working in Texas and we don't really live near Texas. They just can't do it anymore so they might have to move to a less expensive house so they don't get in over their heads. Of course I do not want that to happen and I anticipate needing (ok, maybe wanting) to have her here before and after the baby is born. I will definitely need her if there are problems. Thanks!!

I was supposed to be having a baby today. Nobody remembered but me, not even Nick.

30 day shred

I re-started the 30 day shred with April and some other ladies. So far I missed one day. My wrist is killing me all the time now. I hurt it snowboarding last month and it was doing a lot better but the pushups really kill me. The have you doing some right away in the video and that is the worst. I can't even hold myself up with that arm anymore. It had been ok as long as I didn't go down into a push up (the wrist beds when you do) but now it just gives out right away in the beginning. started doing sit up instead and then doing pushups on a fist at the end of the video. My wrist doesn't bend when I do them on a fist and it hurts a lot less at the end. I assume it's because I am all warmed up and my blood is flowing? Who knows. I have been walking on the treadmill and doing an iFit program too. I haven't weighted myself in a few days but so fat I am down 13.5 pounds since I started (and stopped and started again lol) in January. We leave for our wedding on April 16th so I hope to be down 20 or so total by then.

Date?

How on earth do I get this thing to show the date I posted? It shows the time but not the date. I swear I have the date enabled in the settings are but I am clearly doing something wrong. Also, why are some of my titles and times a different color? I know nobody reads this thing but maybe someone will and they will tell me! lol

Awesome!!

We are getting ready to go to the dreaded birthday party and I find out that the baby who was born on the same day mine died will be there. I had expected them not to go since they have never gone to any of her other birthday parties. I really don't want to see him yet. Our daughters were born a 4 weeks apart and then they had this boy so people naturally ask when we will having our next baby. We also both have older sons. There are a lot of similarities between us so they expect us to have a new baby by now or be working on one. I really don't want to do this. Between the new baby, pregnant mom and guy who has heard that we are having a baby now and does not believe me when I say we are not, this should be awful. If we were already engaged I could deflect all that with my bigger news but we are not yet. Most of these people do not know me very well so they are not going to really know what else to say. I have nothing else more exciting for them. I am really afraid they are going to ask us to stay after the party since we live 45 min away and rarely get up there. Hopefully she is too tired or something. I am about to cry right now because I feel like everyone is going to think I am being stupid by being upset. I don't want to tell Nick becuase he is going to say something that makes me more upset. He will probably tell me not to go. I am not an idiot. If it were that easy I could have some up with that stellar solution on my own. I want to go. Lily is all into "horseies" right now. We saw them at the apple orchard adn we rode the carousel at the mall for the first (and second) time yesterday. I want to be with ehr when she gets to ride a pony. I want to take a picture of it. I want to do that (slightly) more than I don't want to go to the party. I don't want him to tell me something like that, I just want him to fix it. Or for them to cancel the party so I don't have to deal with it at all. I am going to cry. I feel like such an idiot because this doesn't seem to bother anyone else anymore.

to birthday party, or not to birthday party?

Our friends daughter is turning 3 and having a party on Sunday. I guess it will be fun and I really want to go only because there are going to be ponies and I want Lily to be able to ride a pony and I want to be there to see her do it. I need to be there to take photos of the event because Nick will not be able to do it well, especially while walking along side her which I imagine he will do. The problem here is that the mom is pregnant and I do not want to see her. Normal pregnant people do not bother me. One of my Cub Scout friends had a baby girl just couple months ago and I really liked seeing her. I was excited to see her actually. I really wanted to hold her but I was feeling a little contagious so I didn't. This mom does bother me. I don't know why exactly. She constantly whines and complains and bitches about being pregnant. ALL THE TIME! We are talking multiple facebook updates every day doing nothing more than complaining about being pregnant. Um, didn't you get pregnant on purpose? This is your second child, were you not aware of the morning sickness and heartburn? She has zero complications and her morning sickness is actually only in the morning! ONLY IN THE MORNING!!! Imagine the luck! Oh how I would love to have had that pregnancy. I won't even get into the complications and pain I had in the first two. It was pretty bad but I know darn well that it could have been a lot worse. I was blessed with two healthy kids out of three and I did not even have to have c-sections. Thank God for that. I would have done anything for the last one to have been awful and drawn out too. Forget about having the uneventful pregnancy like she is having, I would have taken the crappiest one available! Liam was born 20 days late (yes, 20, 2-0, twenty) and I thought it would never end. I would have LOVED for the last one to go that long. When she whines that the only good thing about her pregnancy is the heartburn I just want to smack her. Hello!! Your baby is fine. Is that not the good thing??! How insulting to the baby. The only good thing about her pregnancy is the heartburn! How dare you complain nonstop when there is nothing actually wrong with you or your child. How dare you complain on facebook to people you know have lost babies, some recently. Some of our other friends have tried so many times and lost them all. I don't know exactly how many but I want to say 4 or 5. What we wouldn't give to have her problems!! It is more than I can take. If I have to hear her to this in person I will flip. She acts so childish now that the facebook is so cool. It is like talking to a 15 year old. We were at their house and all I heard about for hours was facebook drama. I was still boycotting at that time. (I am still mad at facebook for deleting my school when I first made an account years and years ago when it was college only but that is another story.) It was downright pathetic. She used to be pretty cool before she got on facebook. Now I just can't stand her really. I went through a lot with all of the pregnancies I have had but I never walked around complainging about it to whoever was within earshot. If someone asked a specific question I wouldn't lie but I saw no reason to whine about how much pain I was in. It sure wasn't going to help anything and my baby was ok. I know people are going to ask when we are having another baby because the second your baby is born people have you working on another one. I don't really want to be asked that question. I don't want to talk about having a baby or not having one or hear about other people having one. I don't want to go to this party. Maybe we can just get Lily her own pony. That is clearly the better option. Might as well get Liam one too so they don't fight. Maybe we can breed them if we ever need to get a future kid their own pony. No problem. Anyway, this is going to be really hard and I don't want to go but I know that if I don't go I am going to regret it. I haven't told Nick any of this because they are mainly his friends and I don't want him to think I am lame. He is going to say something really practical and obnoxious that does not help me at all and just makes me mad like "Just delete her from your friends on facebook." Oh well. I guess I can't avoid them forever. I really hope she isn't showing and nobody mentions it. Riiiiight.

Fonzie

LOL We got this cow costume on sale at Petsmart today. Lily is going to be Ming Ming this year so now she can save the baby cow! Fonzie just LOVES it by the way. Sort of. As long as the hood is down.